captivity

[full_of_wrath]

Kirk gets called in. Mostly because Khan has made two duty officers guarding his cell ask to be relieved, one of them in tears.

He creates a lot of wear and tear, in general.

Comments

[full_of_wrath]

"Of course, Captain. But might I make a suggestion? As someone who knows him."

She knows Kirk too, which is why she waits for his permission rather than pushing.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

He'd been looking back at Khan's door, but his attention pulls back to her.

"I have a feeling I'll need all the suggestions I can get."

Which is a 'go ahead'.

[full_of_wrath]

"You think, and he does too, that we're forcing him to grieve all over again. This couldn't be further from the truth."

She says, earnestly, eyes bright and wide.

"The truth is, he has never mourned the loss of his people. Now, he has lost every one of them. It was going to be like this, with or without our help. Let us take him through the anger, safely. You fear we will hold him to a standard he cannot attain- that is not the case. We want only for him to survive with his soul intact."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"I want to maintain contact with his ship. He's the only one they'll answer to, and they'll be out of range in a month."

Kirk takes her by the arm and gently pulls her aside, voice low.

"I want him to go back to his people if he can--complete some form of therapy. I've worked next to him, I think he'll do best if he has somewhere to direct the grief, while he has you walking him through it."

[full_of_wrath]

"After the year he has had, he will work best if he is given choices."

She tells him, just as sincerely.

"He longs, very badly, for his story to be heard. For someone in that uniform to say, and to mean, 'what was done to you was wrong.' In light of his crimes that may never happen, but I fear what happens if the Admiral's sentence comes down light."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"It won't."

It can't. Kirk is aware belatedly that the counselor probably feels the desperation and rage he's feeling, and he licks his lips and looks down to try to rein it in.

"I can give him choices. Just tell me how likely it is he'll ever be rehabilitated."

[full_of_wrath]

"How would you describe success, in this case, Captain Kirk?"

She wants to hear.

"What would be rehabilitation, for Khan Noonien Singh? His full name."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"I don't know."

He says it with a lost, humorless chuckle.

"I'd count it a success if he realized why he can't run around killing innocent people to get at who he wants."

But that's complicated, for reasons Khan has pointed out: Kirk would kill to save his crew. He has before.

"If he's going to be awake in this century I want him to know how to live in it."

[full_of_wrath]

"He is, perversely, safer if you keep him from his family. We will never succeed in teaching him not to kill in their service."

She says, head inclining.

"My fear is that all the same, he will simply begin to kill in yours."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"What-- mine? My crew hates him."

Not as deeply as Kirk has reason to, but many of them served Pike once.

"And look, I can't go in there and tell him it's always wrong to kill. It's always unfortunate to kill, but I've taken lives for my crew and I'll do it again. He knows that, he's seen me do it."

[full_of_wrath]

"You haven't noticed his compass point swing into your pull? His memories are of charging an irradiated room to save you, giving his blood and body to strengthen you. Other things besides that the men and women here struggled, at first, to understand."

Reminding him of their first few encounters in the cell.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

His jaw clenches tight, not out of anger but out of some rather deeply conflicting feelings.

"I think I can help him, counselor. And if I can, don't I have a responsibility to try? As Pike's friend? As someone Khan hurt?"

[full_of_wrath]

"No, Captain. You have no responsibilities, here. You have done everything that could be asked of you."

She absolves him, very quietly.

"All you need now do is decide what would be right."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

It doesn't take a lot of consideration. Kirk usually does pick a course of action and stick with it.

"I still want to teach him how to live in our time."

[full_of_wrath]

"Then I would suggest leaving him here a month more. That will enable us to give him the tools he needs to travel with you safely, and the trust he needs to come to us if he must."

She proposes, quietly.

"I would also suggest you ask him if he wants to go with you, and honour his answer."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"Okay."

A deep breath, and then a nod. He can do that.

"Thanks. You're not bad at this."

[full_of_wrath]

"It gives you the time you need to brace your crew. Play with him, and you'll lose him."

She warns him, as well.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"I mean what I'm trying to do."

And he knows his crew trusts him enough to go along with it, but yes, he should let them in on it now.

"I'll check in tomorrow and see what he says."

[full_of_wrath]

"The day after would be better. He needs to rest, and by then, you will have answers concerning Marcus."

Reminding him, quietly.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

He looks again at Khan's door, and then nods.

"But I want updates."

Khan had looked...awful.

[full_of_wrath]

"I'll contact you personally."

She says, seriously.

"He will be safe."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"I appreciate that."

He smiles for her, and has the Enterprise take him back on board.

[full_of_wrath]

There are a few people on board with something to say about the idea of taking Khan in. A few vociferous things to say.

Bones, surprisingly, isn't one of him. Jim, I'm a doctor, I know better than anyone that the only reason you're alive is because of that fish looming bastard. I'm not nuts about the idea, but I'm not going to pitch a fit.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

Spock is logical enough that, between his support and McCoy's, Jim feels this is the right call. That doesn't mean it's any easier to listen to the dissenting opinions. That angry, grieving part of him still agrees with most of them--but he's made the decision not to act off of it.

Ultimately what he tells the crew is that they are trying to promote compassion through the universe, and if they can't do it in their own lives they have no business trying to encourage it anywhere else.

By the end of the month he even has Starfleet Command behind his idea. The hard part now will be convincing Khan.

[full_of_wrath]

When he comes back, Khan will be different. He'll be on his feet, standing on one of the building's balconies, hands laced behind his back. He's still gaunt, still in hospital things, but he looks less rent apart.