"You shining my boots doesn't mean you can't still take me down."
Kirk is well aware of the risks in having Khan on board, but he's chosen to deal with it--he doesn't like the idea that he might be dealing with it by trampling on Khan's dignity.
"Well, I'm hardly going to search 'bootblacking' on your ships computer. I presume my access will be monitored, so you'll have to do your browsing on your own."
"I knew 'service' was an old euphemism, I just didn't realize it meant real service."
But Khan will still have to do it, he realizes. He doesn't want the humiliation aspect, so he's really hoping that swabbing decks and other little tasks weren't remotely sexual.
Although this is the way boots are meant to be done, Kirk has never seen anyone do it this way. Not without a CO standing over their shoulder, and in those cases the attention hadn't been genuine.
He tilts his head, trying to see Khan's expression.
He looks blank, but in a way that seems rather serene rather than tormented, like some source of tension in him has just shut off entirely and he's miles away. It's such a relief.
It takes him twice as long to do one boot as it did to do a pair of the empty ones. Then, he takes the other foot, and pulls it up to rest the heel on his thigh while he starts on it.
It's like seeing a figure through mist and a bad lens. He can kind of get the gist of what this must mean to Khan, but he can't fit it into a perspective he knows.
He does know that this feels really good, though--and not just the hands on him through his boots.
"I'm guessing this was always a one-on-one thing." Because bootblacking with this level of devotion would mean the work would never get done.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:32 am (UTC)Kirk is well aware of the risks in having Khan on board, but he's chosen to deal with it--he doesn't like the idea that he might be dealing with it by trampling on Khan's dignity.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:33 am (UTC)Reminding him,.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:35 am (UTC)Kirk grouses, and doesn't allow himself to contemplate what Khan just said.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:36 am (UTC)Sliding a little to adjust his stance, getting off sore knees.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:39 am (UTC)He says, posh absent and lips twisting obscenely around the profanity.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:42 am (UTC)"I don't get why you're pointing out how much it bothers you, when you clearly don't want me to do anything to change it."
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:43 am (UTC)He compromises, settling back down. Because the truth is, he doesn't know what he wanted either.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:44 am (UTC)History books, naturally, say nothing about it.
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:45 am (UTC)Is all he'll say.
"It was part of a subculture that I'd imagine is long gone."
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Date: 2013-05-29 06:49 am (UTC)Kirk says, a little indignant.
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Date: 2013-05-29 02:31 pm (UTC)Encouraging him, with a shrug.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:06 pm (UTC)If something as simple as this could get under Khan's skin, Kirk has to wonder what else might.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:20 pm (UTC)Would be a good place to start.
"Look up old service."
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:25 pm (UTC)But Khan will still have to do it, he realizes. He doesn't want the humiliation aspect, so he's really hoping that swabbing decks and other little tasks weren't remotely sexual.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:33 pm (UTC)He murmurs, focusing for a moment on lace-holes.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:39 pm (UTC)Or what he'd observed in street gangs, maybe, though that had been more tumultuous than this.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:43 pm (UTC)He murmurs, and then takes a gamble. He slips over to kneel in front of Kirk.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:50 pm (UTC)He works with the sort of ceremonial attention and devotion that the act deserves.
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Date: 2013-05-29 07:53 pm (UTC)He tilts his head, trying to see Khan's expression.
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Date: 2013-05-29 08:12 pm (UTC)It takes him twice as long to do one boot as it did to do a pair of the empty ones. Then, he takes the other foot, and pulls it up to rest the heel on his thigh while he starts on it.
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Date: 2013-05-30 01:45 am (UTC)He does know that this feels really good, though--and not just the hands on him through his boots.
"I'm guessing this was always a one-on-one thing." Because bootblacking with this level of devotion would mean the work would never get done.
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Date: 2013-05-30 05:08 am (UTC)Explaining, quietly.
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Date: 2013-05-30 05:16 am (UTC)He should be watching his boots, but he's not, he can't look away from Khan.
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