captivity

[full_of_wrath]

Kirk gets called in. Mostly because Khan has made two duty officers guarding his cell ask to be relieved, one of them in tears.

He creates a lot of wear and tear, in general.

Comments

[full_of_wrath]

"Just altering my mind."

He agrees, with a shaken sort of smile. He's felt himself change so much already.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"Yeah, well, even in the 24th century I don't think they'll embrace wanton violence. They'll have some other way to deal with it, maybe, but this is what we have now."

[full_of_wrath]

"This, I told you, has a lot of context in my time. I don't think it's translated."

He tries to tell him again, though it's awkward.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"I can tell it's not."

Kirk says honestly.

"I'm trying to tailor things so you'll get some meaning out of them, but I'm not going to resort to all the methods you grew up with. No executions, no life in prison, no torture or cruel punishments."

[full_of_wrath]

"I trust you."

He says, weakly. His mind just keeps insisting it can't be true.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

That answer surprises him into a moment of quiet.

"Do you?"

[full_of_wrath]

"I do."

He says again, breathing.

"But I don't want to be your slave."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

Kirk starts to bark out that he's not, and that's not what this is.

"I don't know what you think this is supposed to be like, so why don't you tell me?"

[full_of_wrath]

"This, in my world? This is specifically coded that way. Usually with overtones of intense sexuality."

He finally snaps, as blunt as can be.

"I don't know what it's supposed to be like, but I can be forgiven for finding it a little hair raising that it's something the whole staff is participating in?"

[kobayashiwhatnow]

He laughs, at first, because he thinks Khan is joking. And then he shakes his head.

"Are you kidding? It's a military thing. It's been a military thing since at least the sixteenth century. For the whole staff."

[full_of_wrath]

"It being a military thing precludes it being a sexual thing?"

How naive can Kirk possibly be?

[kobayashiwhatnow]

Kirk's sexual exploits have mostly been decidedly vanilla. The risque things never involved anything militant.

"It never has been for me! And it's not going to be for you, unless this kind of thing gets you going. And given how stiff you are about it, I really doubt you're getting aroused shining our boots."

[full_of_wrath]

"Don't be obscene. I'm trying to explain to you why I'm experiencing this with- a level of humiliation that might be hard for you to grasp."

Chiding him, seriously.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"And I'm telling you, the point of this isn't to humiliate you, so we're going to come up with something else. Now."

Kirk has never thought of this as remotely sexual, and he hopes Khan isn't lying just to get out of it. But he'd rather take a chance and believe him, than risk humiliating him as punishment.

[full_of_wrath]

He leans over and grabs his knee. He already explained why that's a bad idea.

"Captain."

Now this highlights the vulnerability and sexuality of the position. His hand is filthy, he's still on his knees in front of him, boot in one hand, touching his leg for his attention.

"It's fine. I mean it."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

Kirk looks at him, unwavering, feeling a sense of control he never has with Khan before. He's not sure he likes it, and worse, he's not sure he doesn't like it.

"It's not fine. And if I have you doing something else, my crew will trust me. They don't need to know why I moved you, and they won't ask."

Well, Bones might. But Bones will understand.

[full_of_wrath]

"It's about you, as much as it is about them. I think you need to know you had me like this."

Promising him, as he sinks back down again, picking up the rag.

"I want to continue."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"Why would I need to know I had you this way?"

Kirk asks quietly, watching him.

[full_of_wrath]

"Because I may be on your ship for years to come, and it won't always be easy."

Reminding him.

"You know your psychology as well as I do. This is safer."

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"You shining my boots doesn't mean you can't still take me down."

Kirk is well aware of the risks in having Khan on board, but he's chosen to deal with it--he doesn't like the idea that he might be dealing with it by trampling on Khan's dignity.

[full_of_wrath]

"Yes, but you'll look at your boots every morning and remember where you had me."

Reminding him,.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"You're still not thinking about it in modern terms."

Kirk grouses, and doesn't allow himself to contemplate what Khan just said.

[full_of_wrath]

"I think your terms are wrong. I think it's something primal."

Sliding a little to adjust his stance, getting off sore knees.

[kobayashiwhatnow]

"You think that because in your time this was sexual. In my time, it's a show of solidarity, of unity with the crew."

[full_of_wrath]

"Then your crew need to stop fucking one another."

He says, posh absent and lips twisting obscenely around the profanity.